Thursday, January 17, 2013

The Future

I think I'm obsessed with it, always trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. Nothing directly comes to mind that's completely reasonable. Apparently, libraries aren't doing that well lately, and that's about the only job I could really see myself doing and feeling happy with.

I find myself getting jealous of those who "have it all figured out." But now that I think about it...ha! Maybe it's better not to believe I know what all's going to happen, because guess what? I don't. You don't. If those others I was jealous of also think they've got it all together, I bet we're all wrong. No one knows what's going to happen even five minutes from now. No one can change the future.

Well...there is One. And this brings me to a realization I needed to have a whole lot sooner: why do I keep worrying about tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that and...? God has it all under control. What am I doing?! I even have one of my favorite verses that should remind me that worrying does nothing, that worrying will never change anything. 

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34 (NIV)

I've been worrying too much about the future, so much so that it's hard to see the present clearly. Here I am rah-rahing about being a true Christian, not "just a show," and I can't even do that myself. Talk about being a hypocrite. All this time I've spent worrying about what I'm going to do "when I grow up" I could have spent praying to God and saying, "Hey, You know what, do whatever You want with me 'cause You're God and You'll just do that anyways. So I might as well let You fit me in Your plan with a grin on my face."